He says by being sheltered and listening to how I should live life I was failing at life :/ Well damn, don't really know what to think about that...I mean you listen to your parents because they well at least mine had my best interest at heart and wanted me to succeed. Then he says well, from what I do know about you, you strive to reach goals that society has set and are non existent.......Once again damn, well, damn your telling me the goals I have for my life have no relevance, because they basically don't exist. But as I think about his viewpoint I realize I am very influenced by others because within that 20 minute speech you have me questioning my life...and by listening and taking your advice wouldn't I be failing again??? I mean I understand all you truly want me to do is take full advantage of life and live it, but before this conversation I felt that I was living it...at least I was beginning to. I realize I have to be confident in who I am and my life...whatever decisions I make I have to be 100% confident in, and if someone doesn't agree then I need to smile as they oppose and tell me I need to live differently. I'm so afraid I'm not doing something right or something could be better I question everything I'm doing the moment someone questions it themselves....AS OF 10:16 MAY 2,2013 I'M THROUGH QUESTIONING MYSELF...if I take other's opinions into consideration it will be because I want to, not because your making me feel bad and as if I have to.
By the way, if the person who influenced this post happens to read this I liked some of your points but I want you to understand...I have failed in ways you have yet to see and won't understand and I'm succeeding and learning to hold on to it :)
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